the jane

selective memory
Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i secretly love how i make people feel uncomfortable.. and some moments where my actions make me feel completely ridiculous and embarrassed.

the range of personalities or 'attributes' are so wide. one minute i'm selfish as a spoiled youngest child should be and one minute i can actually care and make sure everyone is happy. it's easy to turn on and off emotions when you're around people who never get to experience the real you, 'cause if the real you emerges, it sure might scare them off. the paradox of it being easy yet being hard. 'cause why cant you just be you all the time? what is there to be ashamed of or embarrassed about?

i struggle with the "can't's" constantly but secretly pretend i can.
maybe that's the secret to self-love. or it could just be that i pretend so much, i don't know what's the truth anymore.

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selective memory Wednesday, April 05, 2006 i secretly love how i make people feel uncomfortable.. and some moments where my actions make me feel completely ridiculous and embarrassed. the range of personalities or 'attributes' are so wide. one minute i'm selfish as a spoiled youngest child should be and one minute i can actually care and make sure everyone is happy. it's easy to turn on and off emotions when you're around people who never get to experience the real you, 'cause if the real you emerges, it sure might scare them off. the paradox of it being easy yet being hard. 'cause why cant you just be you all the time? what is there to be ashamed of or embarrassed about? i struggle with the "can't's" constantly but secretly pretend i can. maybe that's the secret to self-love. or it could just be that i pretend so much, i don't know what's the truth anymore. posted by Jane Tam at 11:58 PM ......................................................................................................... 0 Comments: Post a Comment << Home					About Jane Tam has moved to a different domain. Please forward your links to http://janetam.com. Jane is a 21 year old Photography student placed in Syracuse University but originally from New York City. She enjoys all sorts of music but you can classify her as the stereotypical indie kid. Slightly offensive and bitter sometimes, this blog is a place to vent frustrations but also a blog to display current photo/art projects as well as encourage new talent from music to art to films; basically whatever tickles Jane's fancy. Archives 12/2004 01/2005 02/2005 03/2005 04/2005 05/2005 06/2005 07/2005 08/2005 09/2005 10/2005 11/2005 12/2005 01/2006 02/2006 03/2006 04/2006 05/2006 06/2006 07/2006 08/2006 09/2006 10/2006 11/2006 12/2006 01/2007 02/2007 03/2007 04/2007 05/2007 06/2007 08/2007 09/2007 10/2007 11/2007 www.flickr.com This is a Flickr badge showing public photos from thejane. Make your own badge here.