the jane

rock bottom
Sunday, February 06, 2005

originality is hard to obtain especially since i've been zoning out into space every minute.. i have a love/hate relationship with being a hermit and the damn internet. I can't seem to function without the internet but it also creates all this unneccessary problems that fucks up my little brain.. chemical imbalance, maybe

blogger, xanga, real concrete journal.. so many ways to express my thoughts.. some for entertainment, some for personal keepsakes to stop myself from going berserk, and some to sound like a pretentious fucking indie piece of shit. hmm.. labels piss me off. and lack of originality sends me straight to evil thoughts. lovely.

this is not depression. i refuse to suffice to that thinking process of how sucky my life is. i believe it's the ups and downs in life that keep reality real. i don't believe in feeling pity for myself because i create my own problems.. just fix it, you dumb fuck and stop complaining.

i dont know why i'm so angered.. maybe because i'm stuck here for my birthday and not with my family. i'd like to forget that it's my birthday tomorrow, seriously. i'm also tired of feeling like the only one without any psychological depressing problems. it bothers me that i'm usually the person without any problems 'cause sometimes it comes off as cocky..

well, this is one big post of contradictions to say the least.

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rock bottom Sunday, February 06, 2005 originality is hard to obtain especially since i've been zoning out into space every minute.. i have a love/hate relationship with being a hermit and the damn internet. I can't seem to function without the internet but it also creates all this unneccessary problems that fucks up my little brain.. chemical imbalance, maybe blogger, xanga, real concrete journal.. so many ways to express my thoughts.. some for entertainment, some for personal keepsakes to stop myself from going berserk, and some to sound like a pretentious fucking indie piece of shit. hmm.. labels piss me off. and lack of originality sends me straight to evil thoughts. lovely. this is not depression. i refuse to suffice to that thinking process of how sucky my life is. i believe it's the ups and downs in life that keep reality real. i don't believe in feeling pity for myself because i create my own problems.. just fix it, you dumb fuck and stop complaining. i dont know why i'm so angered.. maybe because i'm stuck here for my birthday and not with my family. i'd like to forget that it's my birthday tomorrow, seriously. i'm also tired of feeling like the only one without any psychological depressing problems. it bothers me that i'm usually the person without any problems 'cause sometimes it comes off as cocky.. well, this is one big post of contradictions to say the least. posted by Jane Tam at 4:59 PM ......................................................................................................... 0 Comments: Post a Comment << Home					About Jane Tam has moved to a different domain. Please forward your links to http://janetam.com. Jane is a 21 year old Photography student placed in Syracuse University but originally from New York City. She enjoys all sorts of music but you can classify her as the stereotypical indie kid. Slightly offensive and bitter sometimes, this blog is a place to vent frustrations but also a blog to display current photo/art projects as well as encourage new talent from music to art to films; basically whatever tickles Jane's fancy. Archives 12/2004 01/2005 02/2005 03/2005 04/2005 05/2005 06/2005 07/2005 08/2005 09/2005 10/2005 11/2005 12/2005 01/2006 02/2006 03/2006 04/2006 05/2006 06/2006 07/2006 08/2006 09/2006 10/2006 11/2006 12/2006 01/2007 02/2007 03/2007 04/2007 05/2007 06/2007 08/2007 09/2007 10/2007 11/2007 www.flickr.com This is a Flickr badge showing public photos from thejane. Make your own badge here.