the jane

MOVED!

2007-11-11T18:58:00.001-05:00

I've packed my bags and moved to http://janetam.com/blog! Update thee links, please :)

well well well

2007-11-04T23:32:00.000-05:00

It's true. http://janetam.com is mine and currently up and running. So please support me and check out my work. More will be updated.

SPE Regional was absolutely fantastic, especially being my first photo-conference. There were some great constructive criticism that I very much needed. Lots of awesome people to meet. Thanks to everyone for all their support and congratulations.

by the time it gets dark

2007-11-01T09:16:00.001-04:00

SPE Northeast-Midatlantic, this weekend.

silver lining

2007-10-14T23:17:00.000-04:00

golden cage

2007-10-13T16:45:00.000-04:00

believe in me

2007-09-30T00:01:00.000-04:00

As busy as I am, I find moments to take in a deep breath.

Someone told me in 10 weeks, I will be officially out of college. That's amazing.

come on

2007-09-29T11:56:00.000-04:00

Syracuse has been going through some tough art politics lately with the surprising dismissal of Astria Superak from Syracuse University funded gallery, The Warehouse Gallery. Astria was appointed gallery director a year ago, almost instantly curating an Art Video Festival at the local art space, Spark. Many are outraged at the sudden firing and overwhelming confused on the bad decision made by the Coalition of Museums and Art Centers's Director, Jeffrey Hoone.

Some speculated the decision was due to the current exhibition up at the Warehouse Gallery, titled, "COME ON:Desire Under The Female Gaze." The CMAC heads were not too keen on the subject matter and how it would be perceived by the Syracuse public. Here is a the description of the show from the gallery website:

The Warehouse Gallery of Syracuse University launches a bold new exhibition, COME ON: Desire Under The Female Gaze, which focuses on the psychological, social, cultural and political dimensions of desire, subjectivity and pleasure.
...
COME ON reveals what is not represented in popular culture and provides a counterbalance to the ubiquitous imagery of sexualized female bodies created for mainstream heterosexual male sensibilities.

The art community in Syracuse have been growing at a fast rate thanks to Astria's influence and connections with the art world. This scuffle throws the growth back 10 steps in making Syracuse a city with a quality art community.

The backlash has succeeded in receiving many supporters for Astria as well as a blog, titled "Syracuse Loses Again." From there you can read the many many letters and press coverage about the situation. You can even read the obvious art censorship argument between Astria and Jeffrey Hoone in their email exchanges. Another interesting blog is Keep Astria.

The City of Syracuse Common Council appointed Astria Suparak to the Public Arts Commission for the period of three years, effective October 1, 2007. See The Post Standard Article.

Here is a flickr set of the COME On exhibit~

brooklyn art project

2007-08-07T15:38:00.001-04:00

Looks like I got a feature on BAP's blog. Go check it out and join the art community.

Other news: maybe I'll finally purchase a domain name and fix up a portfolio site soon.

summer in nyc

2007-06-21T23:22:00.000-04:00

Everyone knows Summer in the city is filled with many events. (Somehow I missed everything due to advanced arrangements :( Anyways, this week is one of the most eventful having Magnum hold many festivities such as reviews, openings, and drinks; also Blindspot celebrating their 35th issue; and of course, there is Jen Bekman's co-curated show with Jörg Colberg, A New American Portrait, opening tomorrow night. I'll have to stop my jb another time to see the well-publicized show.

Besides all that goes on in the art world, there's many other free events... courtesy to Freenyc.net, there's free outdoor movies, music concerts, parades, everything..... man.. I'm going to miss the Mermaid Parade this year too (Saturday starting at 2pm). :(

2007-06-16T00:27:00.000-04:00

hey, hot shot!

2007-05-22T20:45:00.000-04:00

From Russia 2007 Series by Pavel Romaniko

The Spring edition of Hey, Hot Shot! winners were announced today! Be sure to head down to the gallery on Wednesday, June 13 for the opening reception. It'll sure to be a blast and I promise to make it there this time around.

One of my favorites among the talented list of winners is Pavel Romaniko. His Russia series contain soft and intimate images of his home. He focuses on the banal and uninteresting moments; moments that you only recognize after long periods of time away from home. I love seeing other artists who use their home as inspiration since it is what I am most focused on at the moment.

do some art walking

2007-05-19T13:27:00.000-04:00

Park Slope is one of the hippest and trendiest parts of Brooklyn, with many artists, musicians, and performers working/living/and performing there. This weekend many artists are opening up their studios and apartments to showcase their artwork in the 15th Annual Park Slope Open Studio Tour.

I will be specifically heading to my high school teacher's studio, Ann Currier, to catch up on old times and thank her for inspiring me with photography. Her studio will be open for Sunday visitors so do drop by!

oh michael michael

2007-05-16T15:31:00.000-04:00

The opening show for Renwick Gallery, one of West Soho's newest additions, features Meredith Danluck's twelve minute video installation of her encounter with the King of Pop himself, Michael Jackson. Unable to get one on one with the idol, she posed as a fan among the thousands in Japan, who paid $3400 for 30 seconds with the man. No video cameras allowed, she used her newest digital camera which allows her to shoot 24 frames per second, same ratio used in film.

New York Magazine has a deeper write-up on Danluck's adventures.

Show opens this Friday, May 18.

Renwick Gallery
45 Renwick
New York, NY 10013

starts at 6:30pm w/ a performance at 8:30pm

2007-04-19T12:22:00.000-04:00

teach me

2007-04-17T21:54:00.000-04:00

I need to be shooting more often.

i still remember

2007-04-12T00:46:00.000-04:00

Self portrait on Parent's Bed

delicate

2007-04-09T23:42:00.000-04:00

Grand Aunt

love today

2007-04-09T23:30:00.000-04:00

so today.. this kid asked my psych professor what Abu Gharib was.

oh college.

(i wanted to backhand the kid)

2007-04-02T01:30:00.000-04:00

beep america

Let's not take ourselves too seriously. It makes life interesting some times.

tell me

2007-03-29T00:13:00.000-04:00

House

2007-03-25T17:13:00.000-04:00

backyard

just tonight

2007-03-21T00:04:00.000-04:00

garage

you and whose army?

2007-03-14T13:14:00.000-04:00

I am very much enjoying my week of relaxation and the comfort of being home. It is a very much-needed break from Syracuse; too bad I have to go back.

PDN just announced this year's selection of their 30. Some notable mentions from my interests are Maxine Beuret, Shuli Hallak, Brian Lesteberg, and Brian Ulrich. There seems to be a lot focused on fashion photography and many who have worked w/ Urban Outfitters. Hmm.. I dont know.

crystal ball

2007-03-03T12:16:00.000-05:00

Grandparents and my brother

automatic stop

2007-02-27T20:00:00.000-05:00

It was like watching a slow motion car crash this morning. I'm exaggerating but harsh criticism is a bit amusing to witness. The thing about art school is that it's all subjectivity and often people are waay too nice to your face about your work. Backs turn, they could be ripping, questioning, wondering what the fuck you've tacked onto that wall for critique. If you were the one being ripped, wouldn't you need to hear that harsh criticism to re-frame from throwing vomit on a wall and actually grow and understand your "mistakes"?

something is wrong

2007-02-25T23:49:00.000-05:00

is it May yet?

the idea of growing old

2007-02-23T01:01:00.000-05:00

Photography by Shane Lavalette

When I first came upon Shane Lavalette's photographs was from Alice's blogpost on his Hey, Hot Shot! submission. His website has a large impressive cohesive body of work, and well, his blog is definitely worth reading. What surprised me most was that he is only 19! His eye is very mature partially due to his deadpan way of shooting. From his blog, you can tell this guy does his research and feeds off every inspiration that presents itself to him. Very admirable considering some graduating seniors here lack his professionalism.

If you've been living under a rock, the Hey, Hot Shot! winners were announced on Monday. It's exciting to see such great work every time. The lovely opening reception is Wednesday, March 7 from 6-8pm. The showcase will be up from March 8-11. I will definitely make my way back to the gallery to see the show and say hi to the lovely Jen Bekman.

island of the honest man

2007-02-22T16:42:00.000-05:00

Another from the Frat shoot.

I've started a "good advice" folder in my email.

The semester is quickly flying by and the reality of entering the working world is very much evident in my mind. Meg said that I'd very much be likely an gallery artist. I don't know what to think of it. On one hand, it'd be so open and free.. and on the other hand, it's so open and free. No boundaries, no rules, nobody really to please but myself and my bank account. Of course, there are real boundaries in being a gallery artist on the business aspect of things.

Deciding whether to go to grad school seems to be very one sided at this point. I definitely do not think hanging in school for a couple more years is healthy right after you obtain your BFA. I don't know how doctors do it; going to school for so many years consecutively.

So far, whether I hate the projects/classes/professors/ etc, it's all a learning process. It's literally just learning the process of working.

I should really buy http://janetam.com soon.

(someone called me Janet Am one day.. It never occurred to me someone can split my name up that way. I do not like it.)

gut stains

2007-02-21T22:21:00.000-05:00

another from my Frat House shoot.

i should stop procrastinating.. start updating my CV & cover letters and get those suckers out there. the goal is to get an internship and a job.. by the end of summer, I want to be the owner of a medium format camera.

snowed in

2007-02-14T18:36:00.000-05:00

From a Frat House.

Amazingly classes were canceled today thanks to the snow storm in the area.

I've joined Uber, so if you're an artist, join the new trend of artsy "Myspace" web communities.. I'm also on Stuart as well.

when we were young

2007-02-12T19:08:00.002-05:00

A break from everything would be ideal at this point. It doesn't help that I cannot stand the Photography program, the people, and this campus. I just want to continue my "home" series, start my "grandparents" series, set my own pace, and be in familiar surroundings. My mind can do vicious things when exposed to repetitive situations-- you start to get nitpicky and people get way too slow for my pace. It's horrible the things I say.

There's no drive here.

interiors

2007-02-03T10:29:00.000-05:00

Photography by Ben Murphy

I have found the difficulty in producing beautiful interior photographs is the lack of personality or charm of a room. My photographs of home interiors all have this 70s quirky charm or some interesting color combinations. My question is how do you make generic office/dorm/institution-like spaces worth looking at?

I came across Ben Murphy's photographs of the UN Building. The rooms itself is nothing of the ordinary but with lighting and the way Murphy composes each image, it pops. Make the generic the focus of the room.

My somewhat sadistic photo professor (who knows about this blog....i still dont know how i feel about that) is making me shoot at a frat house. Indulging me in my voyeuristic tendencies whenever I go to people's homes, this project will be tough...snooping thru frat houses and individual rooms of people i have never met (or even avoid)..and finding time for friend's to find friend's in frats to let me in.. I'm somewhat socially inept when it comes to people completely on the opposite end of me so it'll be a challenge.

simple living

2007-01-18T18:23:00.000-05:00

It is still awhile to my 21st birthday. Yes, I can officially and legally go out and get myself drunk and be a fool, though that will highly not happen. I love presents; who doesn't? However, I know I am quite difficult to shop for. So... here's a wishlist. I'd very much rather have books than clothing, jewelry, toys, and all that nonsense.

Thank you and continue on with your day now that I've totally made myself a prick for telling you to buy me presents. haha. Snail mail will be just as or even better.. just 39 cents for a stamp.

Cambodia has a way of making you feel guilty

2007-01-18T02:53:00.000-05:00

I'm going to slowly recap my SE Asia trip since I'm bound to forget everything within a year. It was an experience and was very eye opening.. some Law and Order shit going down at times.

We flew from Hong Kong to Bangkok on the 22nd of Dec. There was a layover of 2 or 3 hours so we were lucky enough to chill in the Bangkok Airways lounge. Before going to the lounge, we wanted some grub and took our chances at dining at a finer ramen place. Thai people must not like my sis or I because we were (not) greeted by the worst waitress. She just stood there, no words, just with her pencil and paper, impatiently waiting for us to order. (I knew then.. that Thailand wasn't going to be good)

Anyways, we took a pathetic propeller plane to Siem Reap, Cambodia. Home to their national pride, Angkor Wat.

We had a personal Tuk Tuk driver during our entire stay in Cambodia. It was weird because we would tell him approximately how long we wanted to stay in an area. I dunno, the whole idea of having someone wait on me was a little awkward. On our first day out to see the temples on our own, our driver, Mr. Vandeth, was very much interested in chatting with us. He lives with his wife's family and owes his brother-in-law a shitload of money for buying a tuk tuk. Basically his wife's family makes the money and he has a lot to repay. Mr. Vandeth was very nice though and showed us his home and his brother-in-law's stash of alligators (worth $5k each. he had about 15). His tiny little room which houses his wife and two sons compared to his bro-in-law's massive house.

Cambodia has a way of making you feel guilty.

So the first day we set out temple hopping, we didn't have a tour guide. Basically roamed about temples with our Lonely Planet, not really caring at all about the history and just sightseeing. It was enjoyable until we got to the 3rd temple and we were just thinking "ok.. and i have 2 more days of looking at temples...hmm." Besides that we just chilled on our own, took lame photos, made fun of tourists, and avoided begging children.

Oh the children of Cambodia. They are smart, that's for sure. As adorable yet sad these children are, they are intense when it comes to begging. They know how cute they are, they follow you for blocks asking for candy, money, or to buy their postcards. Some make more than their parents from begging. You help one but you cant help them all and it's a serious problem. It leads to other issues like sex with children thanks to tourists. A retired American couple who now lives in Thailand told us that prostitution of children was bad in Thailand but very much worse in Cambodia. I mean besides seeing old white men with their young Cambodian ladies, we saw old men with Cambodian families, possibly buying the whole family of young and old. You'd think this stuff only appears on Dateline and would never cross your path but once it does, it is some traumatizing sight to see.

The history of Cambodia starts off on a high note but continues to fall. It is trying its hardest to develop and keep up with neighboring countries but gets much of its help from other countries like (South?) Korea, France, USA, etc. Even the paved roads to some temples are only 3 years old and provided by the Koreans. It's good that the country is getting help but during the whole trip it felt like their culture was very much exploited and nothing was really the people's anymore.

The entry fee to see the temples go to some big hotel management. Who knows why they seem to "own" the temples. There isn't much preservation of the temples, very minimal; we've seen that many pieces were broken just from tourists/locals touching them too much or worse picking pieces up and accidentally breaking them. Our best tour guide, Sam, brought us to see Angkor Wat and thankfully we learned about the culture, how temples were built piece by piece, the stories carved on walls, why Cambodia is the way it is present day, etc. He was pretty much the only highlight of Cambodia because otherwise I would have felt just completely overwhelmed by everything I saw. Though the stories often were kind of guilt-ridden, it provided a backbone as to why you see the things you see today.

I probably will not go back to Cambodia because it's one of those "once in a lifetime" experiences that does not need to be revisited.

Other moments worth noting:

-Our hotel did not provide blankets.. so I slept with bath towels.
-Angelina Jolie is like their national pride. They love Tomb Raider like it's god-given.
-Naked children run amok.
-There are flies in restaurants/everywhere. (only noted b/c there was nothing of this sort in Laos)
-Our 2nd tour guide sucked.
-Nobody can comprehend us being from the USA, likely because they don't understand immigration.
-The Siem Reap airport was 99% filled with tourists. Local Cambodians don't travel much or will probably never be able to afford an airplane ticket.
-Don't wear Converse Chuck Taylors if traveling in South East Asia.

20 cent dessert

2007-01-04T20:26:00.000-05:00

probably the yummiest and silky-est dowfufa ever! (soybean dessert)

afternoon delight

2007-01-04T01:29:00.000-05:00

Back in Hong Kong now.. Don't worry, I didn't get injured in the bombings in Bangkok. I arrived in the city the day it happened. Had dinner at a local restaurant and the owner had the news on. It was New Year's Eve so therefore everyone has the TV on. Then bombings happened while we ate and he told us what was happening. It was fine. We didnt do much in Bangkok anyways since it's not our kind of city. dirty, horny, smelly, and crowded. not that cool.

recap the trip later. Thanks to Ashley who actually watch and know about the news to send me a worry-email about the bombings. haha, I felt loved. The rest of you can die. oh I kid. mm, maybe not. Ok, really.

a couple more day in hong kong

lok lak

2006-12-25T20:21:00.000-05:00

Hello from the Cambodia Airport.

let's bullet point some things I've learned.

-huge pedophilia going on here. (old white men adopting families......)

-huge white men w/ local women here..

-Angkor Wat and Angkor Thom are the most amazing places ever. (It doesnt help that we had the best tour guide ever)

-After 2 days of temple hopping, we were templed out.

-lots of begging children= lots of poverty

-weird relationship with Tuk Tuk driver

-our first meal here at a local restaurant was the best. everything after made us poo.

-wasted lots of 5 rolls of film on temples.. er.. yeah..

until later.. going to Laos now.

mourning

2006-12-12T16:04:00.000-05:00

Bebe eating a plum on Vimeo
So Bebe's been having a tough year. She was about 8 or 9 years old and her health has been on the decline; with eye infections to pooping. This past two weeks has been the worse as her eye infection took a turn for the worse, she stopped eating her rabbit pellets, stopped using her litter box, and just lost weight. During Thanksgiving, her eyes would bulge and it seems like she knew death was knocking on her door. We gave her a bath in her rear end today and her shortness of breath was evident. After the bath, her body was completely limp. Could barely sit up straight. I rushed her to the vet, knowing that the inevitable was to come. He said she probably has pneumonia and that with her age, her health will continue to decline. He said he can do some x-rays and give her some meds but it is unlikely to help since she will become dependent on the meds. The only reasonable thing to do was to put her to sleep. It was tough. She's my first and only pet. I balled like a baby.

She's lived a long and full life. She's in bunny heaven now, screwing around like she always wanted to, and enjoying all the food she can eat. I'm quite devastated but what can you do.

It sure was a surprise to come home to this. Tomorrow is my flight to Hong Kong.

no complaints

2006-12-11T14:10:00.000-05:00

from the show.

I head to Asia for warmer weather on Wednesday. Not going to miss Syracuse one bit. If you want something from the Orient, leave me a note/email/etc. Can't promise anything but I'll try.

Just have to get thru tonight's final exam... which I should be studying for.

skip to the end

2006-12-08T23:07:00.000-05:00

Our show was last night. There was a great turn-out. Most were really surprised, including me, on the turn-out considering we are only juniors on the hierarchical pyramid. I'm a proud mama of my work. I think you have to be at this point. We've gone through so many critiques over the past 2.5 years; a sense of knowing "this is right" is key. The thing that hit me this semester is knowing confidence is essential. I may be a shy person but when somebody speaks of my work or I have to speak of it, the confidence exudes.

It was a great night and I know all my hard work paid off.. and would surely do it again.

like a star

2006-12-05T00:01:00.000-05:00

kitchen dining room table at aunt/uncle's place.

This college kid has never really done all nighters. It's my junior year and I've avoided it like the plague but it caught up with me and made me stay up 4 days straight, averaging from 2 to 5 hours of sleep each day. (The 2 days I got 5 hours of sleep was due to oversleeping...bah!) Though it seems like I'm complaining, I'm very much proud of staying up so long! The digital lab has been my second home lately thanks to my lack of confidence in scanning and color correcting therefore it's probably why I'm taking just as long or longer to make prints that are analog. (plus I'm a perfectionist) It's well worth it. My work is only half way completed.. spotting is the worst! (especially if the processing lab fucks the negs up.)

Our junior photo show will be at Spark Contemporary Art Space on Friday from 6-9pm (prolly). We'll be running around like headless chicken right up to the opening. Hey, there will be free food.. as well as my awesome work (along w/ others.. ) (well, that was cocky of me).

New Delhi by Rishi Singhal

One of my "mentors" is leaving Syracuse and heading back to India. Rishi Singhal is the go-to guy for digital questions or anything for that matter; philosophy, art theory, employee gossip (i'm kidding), etc. If our Lord of the Digital Lab isn't present, most head to Rishi for help. He's great and will surely be missed from LightWork. Check out his work on Flickr. It's just a sample of his great portfolio of work. Oh, what will we do without Rishi around? you'll be missed!

there's never enough time

2006-12-02T02:49:00.000-05:00

my cousin/aunt/uncle's place. another digital sketch so excuse the dark exposure. i am too delirious to think as i am staying up all night to shoot for my lighting class.

now, i wonder how i will get thru this coming week.

on the 13th, i'll be flying to hong kong by myself to live off my sister for a month. i'll also be heading to cambodia (angkor wat), thailand (bangkok and chiang mai), and laos. fly back to the states on the 13th of january. nuts!

set the fire to the third bar

2006-11-28T00:40:00.000-05:00

digital test shot of the 4x5 film shot. so excuse the blurryness. at my grandparents' place.

i am procrastinating.

dead end

2006-11-22T22:40:00.000-05:00

I'm home and continuing to shoot interiors of homes, mainly mine and my relatives' places. May I state that I hate the mobility difficulties involved of shooting w/ a tripod? (correction: a lightweight tripod w/ a 4x5) It doesn't help that it takes forever to set up a shot. Checking first with the light meter, then the D70, then add gel filters, then loading backs, then praying the backs were loaded correctly and doesn't snag in the camera, then then then. It's a long process. Oh, for the sake of art! I'm realizing that I might enjoy the digital process more since I love instant gratification. Making contacts sheets is gratification. Shooting.. hmm, I don't know how I feel about the process. It's more like, "let's get this over with!"

Anyways yesterday I saw a real dead body in the street (eyes wide open), a lady stopped me in the street to tell me my future and turned out to be a psychic, and a nasty zit appeared above my lip.

happy thanksgiving. it's just any other day for me.

the world at large + jb news

2006-11-20T21:03:00.000-05:00

mm, mocking Noah Kalina? :D

I'm home for Thanksgiving break. Spent(ding) a shitload of money on photo stuff. Went to accompany the dad to jury duty. Oh yeah.. let's participate in the government by sitting in the same room for 8 hours, doing nothing, but waiting. So grand.

On a positive note, the lovely Fall Hey, Shot Hot! Winners were announced today! There is some awesome work and I think the panelists did a great job selecting. If you're in the city in December, drop by the reception on the 13th. It will be at the gallery from 6-8pm. The showcase will be up from Dec. 14-17. Don't miss it!

anna molly

2006-11-13T00:35:00.000-05:00

mmm, brandon boyd.

down a rabbit hole

2006-11-08T18:58:00.000-05:00

My mother has 2 drawers dedicated to family photos.. it's a mess. I went thru them this summer and found 8mm film negatives from the late 70s-early 80s.

So this is shot sometime during the early 80s, around Lincoln Center, with my uncle.. probably shot by my dad.

I love how natural it is.. not overly cheesed w/ the typical touristy expression.

It's almost the end of the semester and it's amazing how burnt out I am.. I'm so lazy I don't want to cook or bake anymore! That's crazy!

put a little serotonin in

2006-11-06T17:10:00.000-05:00

even better yet

2006-11-05T00:20:00.000-05:00

pretty "boy" Julian Cheung (Cheung Chi Lam).. see, I do like asian guys.. rarely but there's hope.. (tho the majority don't look this good. haha!)

my sundown

2006-11-02T09:44:00.000-05:00

The auction price of 20 Gurskys combined.

The Pessimistic Artist Manifesto

Art is made from money. Art is a business! Yet, we do not want to conform into the boring life of moneymaking in the traditional sense, but how will you make art without supplies? Who will buy your art? How will they see it? Art is a privilege of the Museums, Galleries, and sadly the rich. It does belong to banks & fancy investors. Art is food. You can’t eat it but it feeds you. Money to create art will feed you. Art is not cheap and is not available to everybody.

Art soothes pain?
Art wakes up sleepers?
Art fights against war & stupidity?
Art is inventive, art is a challenge, and art is a tough field.
Art is a business.

Be realistic. You just want to be famous and have money to make art.

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Junior Seminar Photo Course, Fall 2006

First Project = $19.95 for 5 rolls of Kodak Portra-160NC film
$13.10 for development.
$31.87 for digital prints (to produce 6 images).
Second Project = $20.74 for 4 rolls of 120 BW film and 2 rolls of 35mm film
$21.30 for development.
$78.99 for a box of Ilford B/W Fiber Paper (to produce 10 prints).
Third Project = $31.75 for digital prints (to produce 5 pairs of diptychs).
Fourth Project = $37.50 for a digital print.
Total amount spent making ART= $255.20

Reflection of the Cheap Art Manifesto.

going home this weekend, yay!

a small setback to a great comeback

2006-10-29T12:23:00.000-05:00

Here's an oldie.

I want to throw someone in front of a moving car.. ha.

nothing happening

2006-10-25T22:46:00.001-04:00

I came up w/ a series of photos.. projection of photos from photographers. It depicts the contrast or lack of contrast between male and female photographers. The text is from Jen Bekman's Personism blog, where Ken Miller speaks about the backlash from the male-dominated Tokion-organized Creativitiy Now conference. (Thanks to Cynthia for being my awesome model.)

By the way, the deadline for the next installment of Hey, Hot Shot! is approaching. Get your shit together and submit. Note: be sure to pick 3 amazing yet cohesive images.. that helps! Go to the HHS blog to see what others have submitted.

This semester has been rough but I am glad that I am slightly overworked since it gives my brain some exercise. (Ha, I just dropped my English class.. my brain couldnt handle that crap.)

Currently, I'm brainstorming for my final short assignment (due Tuesday!!), the topic being Social Transformation and forming an art collective and thinking up a manifesto that addresses a problem in art. Reading through past manifestos, I was intrigued with the Cheap Art Manifesto, written during the hippie era. "Art is not a business!", they holler. As much as I wish it weren't, and wish art can just be appreciated as is, with no strings attached; it is idealistic thinking. Art IS a business. If I do not get a job, do not exhibit and sell prints, am not represented by a gallery or whomever, where will my income to create this art come from? Don't get me wrong, you need skills to be appreciated but you'd need to sell yourself and your ideas first. It is a business.

Now the question is, how am I to create a series of images to represent this pessimistic point of view? I was thinking I might not even shoot new images and might use some found images to create some sort of collage/montage/crap/bullshit/thing. I haven't a clue. OPENED TO IDEAS!!

(I am so glad to know Blogger fixed the photo-uploading)

blogger issues

2006-10-17T07:14:00.000-04:00

I'm having problems uploading images w/ Blogger Beta. Not digging this shit at all. Go to my Flickr account to see new images.

pulping it

2006-10-09T17:53:00.000-04:00

The art blogosphere is causing a stir; [no] thanks to Tokion's List of Male Speakers at their Creativity Now Conference. My favorite Jen Bekman addressed the lack of females issue on her blog, Personism, which now has caught on fire and spread news to Wooster Collective, Brooklyn Vegan, Art Fag City, etc. So where's the estrogen? In my entire Photo department, the ratio for female to male is like 10 to 1. There are so many of us, ladies, making art and doing our thing but why so under-represented?

Thanks Tokion, you've just lit a lightbulb to another project.

soldier jane

2006-10-09T12:13:00.000-04:00

i swear every job i've held so far; i am the official gopher.

lovely lady lumps

2006-09-30T22:40:00.000-04:00

hiatus for a little bit. just been way too tired and busy to maintain a blogging schedule. you'll find me in the darkroom.

all we have is now

2006-09-24T11:56:00.000-04:00

Green Hills Flea Market

Flea markets in Central New York have the best finds. Never populated by hipsters and overpriced items like in the city, it is what flea markets are suppose to be. This was the first time I've gone to Green Hills, since you need a car to get there and I am immobile, and we were all skeptical to know what is going on inside this one-floor warehouse. There were only about 3 cars parked in the vast parking lot so we knew that pretty much nobody was there. Once we walked in, it was like stepping into a graveyard of memories, as cliche as that sounds. The people were really friendly since we were probably one of the few visitors that came in that day. Bargaining is now a breeze. Works better with the men than the women.. work that "Hmmm, do I really need this" and "I'm a tiny cute Asian girl" ordeal and usually prices drop. (note: one of the FEW pluses to living upstate)

I'll post some photos of the items I bought later.

self helpless

2006-09-19T22:12:00.000-04:00

excessive consumption

Critique for the first assignment went well. Ideas always come full circle after my moments of creating. I printed them digitally so the ouput of the photos were just slightly cyan. (argh, cyan!) It was definitely possible for me to print them all in the darkroom but during that time I was scanning, I really didn't know what I was going to do.

Professor said I shouldn't need to care about the layout of my selection.. basically saying I should've printed a vertical photo that was also interesting.. too late, I've always been a bit anal about layout and being at the gallery all summer, layout makes it or breaks it. Good thing, she could understand my logic behind not printing a vertical.

nothing better

2006-09-17T20:39:00.000-04:00

the room i slept in all summer

I've spent every single day at Light Work, either color-correcting (second guessing) or working. Today, I've spent about 10 hours here.. and still going 'cause I await my roomie. Going from the darkroom to the finishing area over and over again gets extremely tiring on the eyes. I just wanna close my eyes and fall asleep.

Tomorrow is Monday and I start bright and early at work, again.

holland

2006-09-15T21:44:00.000-04:00

Bebe

Notice the more frequent entries with my photos? It's thanks to the fact that I needed to scan some old negs to hand in some bullshit for Junior Sem.. and my rabbit was in the roll.

oh, to be a new yorker.

goodnight goodnight

2006-09-13T18:01:00.000-04:00

hallway to the kitchen

We don't have lights in the hallway. My kitchen is now usually overrun by my brother's boxes. I also love our kitschy wallpaper.

I didn't color correct this 'cause I was lazy.. and I sorta like the crazy colors. It's my lazy reasoning. take it. Note to self: stop using the 800 speed film indoors!

I'd rather not bullshit my first photo assignment for junior seminar but if I'm not in love with the topic or my images that I shot, there's no point for me to show them. There's also no point for two people to have pretty much the same images so I might as well back out and do something else. There's some massive photo manipulation that has to be done to my "Home" and "Hong Kong" images to convey over-consumption. I am by no means even in the ballpark of Mr. Gursky, so it's a challenge.. also because I need them printed quick!! Oh stress.

yes, if you hadnt noticed, the blog turned into the life of a photo student.

foiled stove

2006-09-11T21:14:00.000-04:00

Because oil gets everywhere

This was taken some time during the summer, probably on one of those many days I didn't want to leave my house. (My mom always foils the stove area, for realz, homey.) As old and rickety as my house is, I've really grown to love the cracks. It gives the house character. It's very likely we will be fixing up the house within the next 5 years and all the character will be torn down and replaced with fresh new paint, tiles, etc. When that time comes, I'll only have my photos and possibly video of my rickety house.

Still home sick but maybe too busy to think about it.

everybody knows

2006-09-09T18:02:00.000-04:00

Photography by Kate Bingaman

It seems the broken ground-glass wasn't as big of a deal as we originally thought. It's better to admit the truth than hiding it.

My junior seminar class is frustrating me. Mmm, actually all my photo classes are. The current project involves me taking a contemporary theme that only people in this generation would understand. It's harder to execute than it seems. I know what I don't want to do. No facebook, myspace, cell phones, i-pods crap. No no no. It doesn't interest me. I want to be really into the idea to know that it will turn out successful. So the decision is to focus on consumption, crap that people really don't need, strip malls, etc. Taken inspiration from Kate Bingaman, of course. My problem is with getting to locations. So far, Cynthia and I pretty much have the same photos since we have the same topic and because we go everywhere together. I'll have to see how that'll turn out. Syracuse isn't the most safest place to walk all over. Can I say, once again, how much I hate fucking Syracuse?

Anyway, as much as I find BJ's and Costco revolting (in terms of families buying gallons of mayo), I frequent it. I participate in it. I do enjoy shopping. I am a girl, afterall.

Cynthia and I were talking about how we always pray the years will get better here, ever since we moved in freshmen year. Two years have passed and we're still bitter. It doesn't help that we can't connect with people here.

cosy in the rocket

2006-09-02T18:38:00.000-04:00

oh, what a disaster. With our luck, we managed to get to the State Fair and whilst setting up the 4x5 camera, the groundglass falls onto the ground breaking into a million pieces. A great "oooooohhhh" and "awwwwwww" was echoed as people who walked by saw the accident. Great, now we don't have a camera to use. "Luckily" we went with another group who had their's and things should be okay. We won't know for sure until we process the film (another scary task).

Now I'll have a great sad story to tell and it can be added to the many things I've "broken" this year.

Things happen but you'd never think it'll happen to you.

The bunnies, pigs, ducks, and cows cheered me up though..

Maybe it was more logical to have stayed on main campus rather than move to South campus apartments because now I'm stuck in party central. My window overlooks the back of other people's apartments and well.. they spill out into the garden/grass and their drunken hollers echo.

I'm getting very annoyed with the small circle and really need to expand. What bad karma I have this year.

cold brains

2006-09-01T00:23:00.000-04:00

Photography by Rineke Dijkstra

Good portraits are fascinating since they can reveal their personality through their eyes, their stance, their clothes, and sometimes their settings. I'm a big people watcher so therefore I love Rineke Dijkstra's style of shooting. Her choice of portraits of children and teenagers are exceptionally well done, showing that modesty and teenager attitude in their way of standing and connecting with the lens.

I'm as much excited and scared of shooting portraits of strangers with the huge 4x5 at the State Fair. Let's pray that we load the film correctly and pray we don't shoot blanks.

the future freaks me out

2006-08-30T23:27:00.000-04:00

Photography by Ryan Pfluger

After my second Photo class today, I am officially overwhelmed. They don't like to ease things for you, they tend to start you off with bullshit beginner photo for 2 years and then dump you into a world of stress and fear. This weekend we must venture into the State Fair w/ our bulky 4x5 view camera and shoot portraits.

Forget the cocky bitch, I'm one intimidated pussy when it comes to studio work. It's due to the lack of experience but that's why I'm in school for right? To gain it. I'm worried about loading the film-backs and processing as well as interacting with my subject. But think of this Jane, you'll see bunnies at the Fair!

Ryan Pfluger has been in my bookmarks for quite awhile. I admire his portraits since there is that connection between camera and subject that is very hard to capture. The lighting and composition is so fresh and crisp. He's one of those photographers I look to see updated work.

I'm going to try and keep updating as much as I can, especially with photographers I enjoy, but no promises. They're cracking the whip and my ass hurts, so I best get a move on.

we will become silhouettes

2006-08-30T00:30:00.000-04:00

Photograph by Barbara Salinas

It was funny today in my lovely Photo Junior Seminar class when my professor asked the class basic questions of what photographers we like, books we've read, how technically proficient we are and all that jazz. Like usual first classes, we all sat there, blank faced, and nervously waiting for one person to break the silence. The introverted artists in most of us didn't say a peep but when someone took a dive and said a very very well-known photographer he liked, our professor asked the rest of us if we knew of Joel Peter Witkin. I have an ego and can be quite the cocky bitch but I wasn't about to wave my hand frantically in the air and say "I know him, I know him!" We didn't respond when she asked us what camera experience we have, other famous contemp. photographers, etc.

We basically sat and stared at her. So I'm sure she's worried that we're a bunch of retards and will be the worst Junior class ever. Play dumb first and then surprise the shit out of them later.

Syracuse is a weird place to be. On one hand, I think it's nice to be out of my comfort zone to explore new things but (there are always buts) in the 2 years I've been here, I find it dull, stereotypical, and mentally takes a toll on my brain. There aren't times where I can just take the train by myself, where walking through the streets I don't feel insecure. I don't even laugh as hard as I do. Since the first day I've entered Syracuse in Fall of 2004, I needed things to get better. Now I'm sticking it out for two more years to get that degree and get the hell out. There are more things I can go into, but I'm sure to offend some people whether they read "blogs" or not. This is an obligatory "I hate Syracuse" entry that wanders in every couple of months. It's sad to wonder "what if" (especially since I got into all the schools in the city). Being this frustrated and unhappy makes me wonder almost everyday what home means to me.

Photography by Kanako Sasaki

Anyway, I was going through PDN's Top 30 Photographers to Watch 2006 and saw some favorites and some familiar names (people who've submitted to Hey, Hot Shot!). Choosing photos to show is a hard task and I think people should always get multiple opinions from outsiders. When you can only submit 3 images, choose images that wow people and get a point across through them. See and absorb as much as you can when it comes to new artists- I do. It's inspirational and motivational. Get with the program, photo kids.

don't move

2006-08-27T00:10:00.000-04:00

I'm 99% packed but still in my comfortable home and not in my new apartment in Syracuse. Ah, now I just want to get this 5+ hour drive over with.

oh bebe

2006-08-22T13:02:00.000-04:00

Bebe eating a plum on Vimeo

hey, hot shot

2006-08-22T12:54:00.000-04:00

The winners are announced! Go on to the HHS blog and read all the details.

I am the blogging queen.

a message

2006-08-20T19:47:00.000-04:00

Why are the local Kohls and Targets selling Syracuse University gear? Oh yes! I love being reminded of going back to the upstate hell-hole!

don't kid yourself, you need a physician

2006-08-17T19:23:00.000-04:00

I swear I am born for fashion. I mean, the holiday sweater alone says "Jane is fabulous." I kid. My younger cousin found this ancient photo and it sure made my day.

I'm pretty sure everyone will agree that the judges are insane to auf Alison and not Vincent. According to Andy Cohen's blog, Alison will be showing at Fashion Week in September so at least she's going forward! Vincent better be auf next week- I can't stand his voice. He does not make good tv. Michael and Laura beatboxing makes good tv.

chung chung

2006-08-14T15:57:00.000-04:00

painted by numbers

2006-08-11T17:13:00.000-04:00

i don't know shit about cher

2006-08-10T18:13:00.000-04:00

Being the Project Runway fanatic that I am, I was sad to see Bradley be out yesterday. His quirky sense of humor is so whimical and he's a wack-a-doo. I can't say he's one of the best designers because he sure made a major mistake making that "Cher" outfit. (But Jeffrey's was so much uglier)

You should really listen to Tim Gun's podcasts.. he's hilarious! He was super surprised that Bradley didn't know anything about Cher because he thought little Bradley was gay.. haha, he's not so sure anymore.

This is my "I need someone to talk about Project Runway with" post.

easy/lucky/free

2006-08-08T00:51:00.000-04:00

What is great about interning for photographic agencies and galleries is the great amount of work that is exposed to you.

Photo for Prada campaign by Cedric Buchet

I interned for a fashion photographic agency last summer and pretty much went through portfolios and portfolios everyday. I organized the online image database and I even went through fashion magazines to look for tear sheets. (I miss reading free fashion mags, I have to admit.) It's great to learn how people shoot, from which angles, how they frame the image, what colors/if any do they edit in or out, how subjects are lit, the whole schpeal. Fashion is a big part of my life even if I don't wear it on my sleave (because I'm lazy and do not have the confidence to pull certain looks off) and although I love fashion, I wasn't so sure if fashion photography was my cup of tea. From the internship, I was exposed to so many different types of fashion photo and my preconceived notions of the standard heroein chic pose in a studio were flown out the window. I grew to love how certain photographers captured portraits, an area I struggle with. Not only portraits but also architecture, spaces--you know that whole deal. The line between art photo and fashion photo is a blurry one and photographers like Elinor Carucci have used personal work for fashion campaigns. Although I like fashion and is a Project Runway freak, I'm still VERY unsure about my future in the business.

What am I saying? Be exposed to as much as you can. Learn from other people. Posting everyday for the Hey, Hot Shot blog and seeing participants' submissions have kind of motivate me to pick my ass up and shoot some rolls, after taking practically the whole summer off. Going back to DeviantArt and seeing photography by 16 year olds with their D70s and making beautiful work made me feel like a wasted 20yr old. I watched my cameras collect dust! Very bad, I know.. but I wasn't focused and ready to waste rolls on anything. But you know what.. I might as well. The more I shoot, the better I'll be. Hopefully.

a mess to be made

2006-08-07T00:04:00.000-04:00

I've been reading up on the doctored photograph that Reuters's freelance photographer put out on the bombings in Beirut. It's a shame that photo editors in Reuters did not catch such an oblivious manipulation. Look at the smoke and how repetitive it is. It is easily accomplished by using the clone tool in Photoshop. If you want to pull a fast one on the public, at least make an attempt to use Photoshop and make things look believable. This, Adnan Hajj, sure sucks at photo manipulation and should not be a photojournalist if he decides to pull fast ones over us and try to make news bigger than they actually are. Good thing Reuters dropped him.

why you'd want to live here

2006-08-06T18:41:00.000-04:00

Finally got myself to open Dreamweaver and customize a new layout. The lovely background is from Squidfingers. I swear I am so rusty when it comes to Photoshop, Illustrator, and Dreamweaver. It's been so long since I've actually drawn anything since I've been only doing photo editing and retouching in Photoshop.

When it comes to careers in the very very near future, it'll be useful to know most of the Adobe programs. I have to realize that I will be in major debt once I get out of college and will have to hit the ground running in terms of suitable jobs. Can you tell I worry a lot?

please leave

2006-08-06T12:26:00.000-04:00

I sent a little note to a photographer I admired on DevArt telling him of the HHS competition and all its little details. He accused me of spamming AND SCAMMING. Scamming? I wish he had done some research before accusing me of such a thing. Galleries almost always charge application/handling fees when it comes to Open Calls. Go to NYFA and check it out yourself.

You have to risk losing $45 to get some publicity 'cause sadly that's the name of the game if you want to be a photographer. The more people that know you, the more you can do. Sure, I want to live the life of someone who makes art for myself but realistically, how will I continue to pay for darkroom/paper/chemical fees if nobody sees my work or buys it. People don't win all the time and you take it w/ a grain of salt and just keep working on your "craft" until it deems worthy of a second glance.

annoyed.

here it goes again

2006-08-02T15:41:00.000-04:00

Another homemade music video from the guys of Ok Go.

I've been hiding away in my air conditioned house and avoiding heat any way I can. It's no wonder I like old people; it's because I am one. It's tempting to whip out the umbrella to shade myself from the sun.

There's a week left to submitting to the Hey, Hot Shot competition. I'll be updating the blog everyday with submissions I like.

Aug. 28 is the first day of classes.. ugh, not so excited.

little miss sunshine

2006-07-27T23:05:00.000-04:00

everyone, pretend to be normal

i love this film.

the taste of red

2006-07-27T10:39:00.000-04:00

It was the third time seeing Butch Walker and you can definitely tell he's moving on up; with the sold out show at Irving Plaza, the new band he's playing with, and those backup girl singers that are basically for show. Hell, even his mike stand was all fancified. Even though it seems he's really soaring up there, he still manages to play the best shows. He knows how to work the stage, the crowd, and actually sing from his heart. I'm glad I had a chance to see him again hopefully more times in the future 'cause goddamn, he's one of the few that leave me with knowing that I should've paid more for that great show.

Watch one of his new videos, Joan.
Buy Butch's new album with the Let's Go Out Tonights.

uncomfortably numb

2006-07-25T19:53:00.000-04:00

Ah, just when I've had enough of my 2-day rest after a very busy week, the body decides to throw me in a loopy loop of tummy pain. Seemed like a really nice day but as I was getting myself ready to meet up with the roomie in the city, my body gives me a dose of pain and alas, no outing for Jane today.

Will have to suck it up tomorrow to do some errands before a day at the gallery followed by a Butch Walker concert. Long days scare me.

spamalot

2006-07-22T00:12:00.000-04:00

Spamalot, so worth it.

swollen

2006-07-20T12:19:00.000-04:00

donde esta mi ankle?
the foot refuses to get back to normal and decided to be super swollen. oh leg.

the drowsy chaperone

2006-07-19T00:50:00.000-04:00

Went to see The Drowsy Chaperone tonight. Hilarious and simple comedy w/ some really catchy tunes. I miss going to see musicals; this is my first in a loooong time.

I'm being eaten alive thanks to the hungry mosquitoes.

Night Falls on Hoboken

2006-07-13T23:52:00.000-04:00

I've joined the hipster blogging community and now hooked onto RSS feeds. With Newsgator, it's so easy to read all the blogs in my Bookmarks. You know when blogs are updated so you don't have to wander to their website aimlessly hoping the person posted something new up in the past 2 weeks. If you'd like to subscribe to my blog feed, you can just click the orange button next to "My Links".

Also, use del.icio.us to keep track of my bookmarks.

yay, no more messy bookmarks folders.

The sister is flying to NYC for 2 weeks. It should be good 'cause I haven't had a chance to freeload in a long while.

listening to: Yo La Tengo.. (missed them at Prospect Park today.. =/)

Music (Art) Pick - Matthew Lewon (eat a bug)

2006-07-13T17:57:00.000-04:00

Matthew Lewon - Heard About You on Vimeo

I've recently joined Vimeo to get some inspiration and to remedy my boredom. I came across Eat a Bug's music video for a singer/songwriter Matthew Lewon. Stop animation has always intrigued me, maybe because it points out the changes or maybe it's made of still images. It also helps that this song is nice and catchy and an all around cute/funny video.

Check out more of eat a bug's videos.. I recommend it.

Art/Film Picks - DDR and Rouge

2006-07-09T23:45:00.000-04:00

Ok, I'm a year late but it's only because I never get a chance to go to the Tribeca Film Festivals, thanks to being in Syracuse. I watch a lot of TV and do way too much channel surfing but have found that the local channel 25, NYC TV, is a great source to expanding art/film/music intake. Sunday night, I caught a portion of Backdrop NYC, a show that features short films made and shot by "New Yorkers", and watched Sasie Sealy's (I love her name!) short film, "Dance Mania Fantastic." It is about the pressure of being a salaryman and the sudden lay off from a job makes the main character continue to pretend to his family and fiancee that he is still going to work. Dressed for work and with too much time til 5pm, he wanders into an arcade and discovers Dance Dance Revolution. This 12 minute short has some beautiful cinematography, using a lot of bright colors and lighting to reflect Japanese city life. It also has a great sense of dark humor with his dance steps and short conversations with an arcade attendant. She could be the next Sophia Coppola.

I downloaded a bunch of Anita Mui music for my mom lately and it also got transferred onto my ipod. Very rare for a young 20 year old to be listening to what Chinese people call "classics" in Cantonese pop music. My mom also introduced me to "Rouge" (1987) featuring Anita and Leslie Cheung, both big names in Cantonese culture. The film jumps back and forth from the 1930s to the late-1980s, telling a tragic love story about a prostitute's love and devotion to a rich heir. Anita Mui plays the ghost that returns to the modern world to find her rich lover who never made it to the other side with her. There were some questionable scenes; like the modern couple's need to have a sex scene, but this was made in the 80s so eh. Other than that, the scenes from the 30s were great in terms of costume and authencity. One of my top "romance" films.
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Watch Backdrop NYC on Wed at 9pm, w/ repeats on Sun at 8pm. (Local channel 25)

Buy Rouge on DVD on Amazon

oh Zidane

2006-07-09T18:34:00.000-04:00

even if Materazzi was talking about your mother, you don't go and headbutt him and get yourself thrown out of the game. you probably knew it was gonna go down to penalty kicks and you're the best at it. you're going to retire, you might as well go out with a win. them italians, they sure play dirty.. -_-

ah, zidane, porquoi?

very sad that france lost ('cause i never liked italy to begin with)

company in my back

2006-07-06T19:53:00.000-04:00

my backyard, originally uploaded by thejane.

it's good to have wifi in my backyard.

Music Pick - Canada

2006-07-06T02:04:00.000-04:00

Anybody that knows me knows I love Canada and would probably move to Vancouver in the future, so why wouldn't I like a band that calls themself Canada? (Except they're really from Michigan, with some occasional Canadians) This 8 (sometimes 10) piece music collective is a great mix of folk, indie, pop genres. I'm thinking if you like Sufjan, you'll like them.

They have couple of songs for download on their Myspace page.
Website//buy their album

Art Pick - Look at me

2006-07-04T01:10:00.000-04:00

If you've been under a box the past year, old is the new black. Vintage is the new hot thing and Look At Me is a great website with a huge collection of old photographs. With over 550 photos, you can study how people take family portraits, where they decide to take pictures, and it's just a great form of people watching. They are all found photographs and what's great is that anyone can relate to the pictures, whether it is a sibling portrait from the 50s or the 80s. We all have those photos. Federic Bonn started the project with just a few found photos in Paris and has grown to even score recognition in the NY Times.

oh yeah, Happy 4th of July!

sidenote: I'd rather not have any more pity for my foot injury. It's a pain, I know it. I'm wasting away, I know it. It's okay. Quit the aww-ing. I'll live.

Music Picks - Broadway Hush & Cat Power

2006-06-29T18:59:00.000-04:00

I decided I'll do a weekly music pick blogpost.. just to keep myself busy.

My tastes in music has taken a turn for the more mellow. I've been roaming though Myspace collecting music from very small indie bands to satisfy my thirst for new music. A few months ago, I came about Page France, thanks to You Aint No Picasso's recommendation and praise. Since then, I've been very hooked onto their style of slow, indie, and pop melodies. I came across The Broadway Hush, while browsing Page France's myspace page, and found a lovely new and fresh side project of PF. With two members of PF, Whitney McGraw and Michael Nau and a few others, they create great music for those moments when you're daydreaming or driving or walking through the bustling city.

Another sweet sounding female vocalist is Cat Power. I've been listening to a bootleg at La Cigale Paris, performed on Nov. 11, 2005. It's quite a clear sounding bootleg and you can have a listen to it at RBally. It's has jazzy melodies sort of like Norah Jones but with a wee bit of a southern touch.

Buy The Broadway Hush's 7" at Clerestory AV.
Preorder Page France's 2 disc CD, Pear & Sister Pinecone, here.
Buy Cat Power's Greatest Hits at Amazon.

I'm no lover

2006-06-29T13:36:00.000-04:00

This limping business is getting on my nerves. I want to walk, run, and be outside. Haven't a clue how I will go to a concert tomorrow night but it's paid and I have to.

Sorry for bailing on you today, Kelly. I owe you a lunch/dinner!

I went to this small vintage postcard shop on Prince Street 2 or 3 years ago, accompanying Ashley on her search for a specific postcard. I cruised the shop to see lots of vintage postcards, inspiring, humorous, and nostalgic. The snailmail generation was on its way out when I came along. In a way, I miss it. I was thinking of heading back to the shop to buy some cards for a future project but while searching for its address online, it's sad to say the small shop had been victim of gentrification when I read this NY Times article.

nascence

2006-06-28T02:41:00.000-04:00

bored and awake, originally uploaded by thejane.

i was bored.. and trying to get tired to fall asleep.

leopard and the lamb

2006-06-26T02:22:00.000-04:00

it's been hard falling asleep for the past few days.

good weekend

2006-06-20T20:25:00.000-04:00

not so much. The ankle just doesn't want to go back to normal and is still swollen a bit. Two weeks seems like 2 months especially since this is suppose to be my summer break. I need some sort of an ego booster. The doc said I seem like an optimistic person because I always have a smile even when I am the only person who've visited him so many times. I don't know how optimistic I am now since the fucking foot is making me feel like I'm stuck in prison. Grateful that my mother tends to my every needs, I need some fresh air.. and ugh

let's just all agree and say that I'm wasting away.

cannonball

2006-06-14T20:15:00.000-04:00

the sky is falling! nope, nevermind. it's another AC.

the lack of images in every post is depressing, no? well, being cooped up at home all week, practically on bedrest, and being plain lazy doesn't inspire me to shoot.. tho I did wish someone took a picture of my mom washing my hair over the kitchen sink.

limping jane

2006-06-14T00:15:00.000-04:00

i'm a cripple still.. slowly but surely, the ankle is healing with the "help" chinese (stinky) herb medicine.

i love mail. ooooweee!